Oh Lord, I am so grateful to know You. You are so good to me. Thank You for saving a wretch like me. For many years I was so far gone in my own sinful ways. I had no cares in the world about doing Your will, but my will instead. If I was taken care of physically because of sin, I was happy. So my demands were temporarily given to me in the pleasures I felt in sexual sin. I had what I wanted in the moment and that was all that mattered. It didn’t matter that I was defiled because of the things I saw and did. I had joy in the moment and that is what mattered most. I lived like this for years until one day everything came crashing down on me. I was no longer living a secret life but was now exposed for my wrongdoings. Even my wife and kids knew everything and I was very shameful. What I did wracked my soul and I felt like dying inside. Lord, at this time, I was flooded with guilt and shame. No longer was self-gratification good anymore, for it brought unto me so much pain and sorrow in the end. I didn’t want to look at porn or be involved with any other women but needed Your help now. Surely, I did not know that You still cared for a sinner like me, but I hoped and prayed that You would at least give me a chance. And so it was that in my brokenness, I was made humble. I cried out to You in all my tears and You came to my rescue. You heard my confessions and had mercy for my soul. What a great God You are. I did not deserve Your mercy and compassion. I was destined to hell, but You opened the gates of heaven so that I might enter. Thank You, Lord. Now I know that anyone can be saved. A person can be the worst person to have ever lived, and do all the wrong things, but if they would humble ourselves before You, there is mercy still for them. Your mercy endures forever and never fails us when we call upon Your Name. I love You, God. Amen.
1 Kings 21:25-29 (KJV)
25 But there was none like unto Ahab, which did sell himself to work wickedness in the sight of the Lord, whom Jezebel his wife stirred up.
26 And he did very abominably in following idols, according to all things as did the Amorites, whom the Lord cast out before the children of Israel.
27 And it came to pass, when Ahab heard those words, that he rent his clothes, and put sackcloth upon his flesh, and fasted, and lay in sackcloth, and went softly.
28 And the word of the Lord came to Elijah the Tishbite, saying,
29 Seest thou how Ahab humbleth himself before me? because he humbleth himself before me, I will not bring the evil in his days: but in his son’s days will I bring the evil upon his house.
No one is too far gone from God’s hand of mercy. Simply humble yourself before Him in prayer and you will be forgiven.